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Expectations by Hayley Kiyoko: a breakdown

Expectations/Overture: Chill, relaxed happy, kinda a buildup to the rest of the album

Feelings: Lonely, looking for love, tired of being single .

What I need (feat. Kehlani): Found someone but getting mixed signals??? Why are you keeping me at a distance? Are you hiding me? WHAT DO YOU WANT???? We could be good together!!

Sleepover: I want to be with you so bad but you dont want that :( at least i can fantasize about us.

Mercy/Gatekeeper: i cant stop thinking about you and it hurts. I cant tell you how i feel because i might mess things up. I need to get away and get a fresh start.

Under the blue/Take Me In: We get together, bow chika bow wow but like cool and gay,

Curious: so you’re avoiding me and you’re back with your boy toy but im too cool for this so its all chill. Ps are you really with him what are we stop playing with my emotions like this.

xx: why’d you do it? vibes. No words. Confused?

Wanna be Missed: why you dont want me? You were so into me and said all those things and made me feel like this now where did you go?

He’ll Never Love You (HNLY): You clearly want me, why are you with him im the one for you, we would better than you and him would ever be.

Palm Dreams: im going home. Partying and being here if you want me. Living life and moving forward. This is my place.

Molecules: youre really gone and im trying to move forward. Trying to feel again. Ive lost you.

Let It Be: i have to move on but i miss you and its hard. Feelings are hard.

This album is a story we all know in the form of 10 bops lasting 49 minutes altogether.

At the end of the day, no matter how you want to be left alone, humans are predisposed to seek emotional attachment with one another. Even if you are staying in the same space without talking to each other, the presence is felt. Human beings demand for their presence to be acknowledged.

You can live and survive on your own, yes, but for how long? Forever? When people are alone, they look up to God and pray. That defeats the purpose of being alone. Are you really fine with being alone and not look for God in the moment of your vulnerability?

In our younger years, we wish to be left alone. Being alone grants you more freedom. No need to account for other people’s feelings and opinions. However, once you’ve stepped into the middle ages, all you seek for is the care and presence of the people you love. People can’t bear being alone no matter how much they want it. The only reason one chooses to be alone is because deep down, they demand for attention and care from people who hopefully care for them as much as they do for them.

My opinion as of now. Maybe I’ll look back at this and cringe but who’s to know? :)

Thinking of starting a blog through this tumblr account. Reminding myself to put my thoughts here the next time I feel like ranting.